this film always brings you back to reality.

i think its got something to do with being in love.

its one of those films that brings back memories.

and...

they are two beautiful people that once upon a time fell in love..

DONE all the shoots for the week done. work tonight. day off and editing tomorrow.

ok so that was a busy busy week yet amazing at the same time.

i want my life to be like that all the time. well not all the time but work wise :D

i did most the shoots this week for favours which i love- if it can make peoples work better then im all for it.

the shoot i did yesterday for my exhibition was amazing.

i worked with two of the most talented people i know.seriously good pictures and also one of my best friends as the assistant.win.

i want to put 3 images like this one on the wall but i dont think they'll work with what my intention is. GOD DAMN.

the other four are better .yeah they are.

shoot went good.

really really enjoyed it- something different and creative and got some awsome images.

but the best thing about the night is people knowing what they want. they see and image that they've created and the light just comes on. I've experienced it myself and its a good feeling but watching it happen to someone else is definatley 100% a better feeling.

Got another one all day tomorrow- the big one. the important one. the one that wil hopefully be on a wall for a year after its finished.

i cant wait to see what they comeout like. defo worth getting up for in the morning.

as for tonight... a night of one tree hill season 5 (peyton and lucas' relationship gives me hope in life, not just in relationships just in friendships and philosophy) and the Bangtidy celebrity juice.

im also fulfilling my ocd and fully cleaning my room and organising my sneakers.

busy.busy.busy.

thats me all week. but its all fun. photographing different people different ideas, give my creative part chance to run away which must be a bonus for relaxation. not that i get stressed easily though to be fair. i don't see the point, we can shout and scream or loose sleep and worry constantly but the thing your doing this over is going to come round sooner or later and theres nothing loosing sleep can do about it apart from ruin yourself.

much easier to take it as it comes and think things through and prepare. its gotta make you stronger either way.

back to the point...got a shoot tonight feeling not nervous but rather excited. see how it goes ey :)

i also get to dance my ass off like a lunatic later at work-bonus.

I cant wait to explore this with people.

Life is busy this week. must remember to stop and breathe.

"we know who we are.But not who we may become."

Sometimes the world really does suck.

How can a safeplace become unsafe or what you know as normal become uncomfortable.

I was thinking about this today.as much as i take my life for granted if it all fell apart then i think Ive got a few decent people i could fall back on.

people that care about me as much as i care about them.

friends are a tricky thing.

what is the ultimate friend?

Some one to talk too.someone that asks if your ok, some one you can cry on, some one you can laugh with?

I honestly dont have the answer. but i know if it came down to me or one of my friends not being in this world id jump in front of them without a second thought. because without them. as lame as it sounds and i know it does, the worlds nothing without reliance and loyalty.

even if they prove themselves for only a second. that second means the world.

on a really stupid note.

Justin Bieber is seriously invading my life. even the programme that can cheer me up on one of the worst days is obsessed with him.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6KG70d6qbVE

this is something me and my friends would do.

do you no why?

because we can. were crazy like that.

'i wouldn't change one second of our life together.'

do you ever feel like your trapped in your own mind. every thought every idea seems pointless or overwhelming?

i do this as a choice. to overload the mind so much that the most obsurd and impossible dreams race through the mind like a virtual merry go round.

then one image.idea.dream stops everything. freezes you and your surroundings and suddenly.

makes sense.

Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone.

Do not be troubled about the future, because it has not yet come.

Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.

as sad as it may sound. no matter whats going on . no matter how i feel when i sit down and watch One Tree Hill everything is lost.

yes its a tv show yes its not real but its been in my life for that long the fantasy becomes reality.

it can some up feelings in my life or experiences or even make me laugh.no matter what happens itll always be there.

'Happiness comes in many forms -- in the company of good friends, in the feeling you get when you make someone else's dream come true, or in the promise of hope renewed. It's okay to let yourself be happy because you never know how fleeting that happiness might be' --Lucas

'wanted you to fight for me! I wanted you to say there is no one else that you could ever be with and that you would rather be alone than without me'--brooke.

'At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just not facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world, six billion souls. And sometimes... all you need is one.'-- peyton.

i have a strange fondness for this girl.

im unsure why. and im even more unsure of why ive become obsessed with the programme shes in but i have.

hmmm lifes strange happening. anyway. it makes my day brighter :D

do you ever feel like you want to tell someone to seriously FUCK OFF and grow up.

jesus christ everyone has bad times and good times- these times make up your life damn it.

some people think lifes a competition but its really now. you dont earn extra brownie points from the creator, you dont get to sit on the golden thrown when you go to where your supose to be. it may make you stronger in life or it may make people around you not ant to compete but just give up.

think about it.seriously is it all worth it? really? because only you make your life what it is right no one else deep breath close your eyes and jump.feet first because if you hold back thats when you get hurt right?

spending the day with an incredible person.

well quite a few. i dont no some aswell as others but im pretty willing to learn.

im litterally sat in a room of creativity.peoples minds amaze me- always thinking of something new, troubles or just dreams about there ephoria.

the weathers shite today but little things make the world better.

Dont hold yourself...let yourself go.

last nights events sound brilliant.

the short time before i joined the fools that go into my work place i spent with the sisters.

the moments with those people seem surreal. nobody cares about what others are thinking.everyone cares about eachother. alcohol (usually shots) gossip and some serious dancing.

and if your really lucky you get a kebab shop rave.but only if your lucky.

amazing girls.love always.

as for my time spend after seeing the sisters.working with crazy people.convincing some people we were austrailian. and getting paid for it.winner.

moments like these make my work enjoyable.

a second in time frozen.

a thought.

an expression.

a word.

ive stepped up the body canvas.

amazing art from kim at sinkinink.

i am also still in love this man.

welllllll.

first day off in a while.cleaned and started my uni work.

i litrally have 100s of images already which is a better start than my usual self.

i got a 2:1 if fashion which im pretty chuffed about.

Stayyed up all night to watch the super bowl eating dominos pizza and cookies.

however my team lost :( but it was enjoyable anyhow.

im also going out with one of my best friends tonight for a catch up.

i think the beginnings a good place to start.