My beautiful baby god daughter was born yesterday 10.08 am.

i havent seen her yet but i cant wait.

ive mentioned previously that im not a maternal person and i certainly dont like pink but shes going to be one of the few things that melts my heart i can tell.

i cant wait to watch her grow, laugh with her and also....

buy her these..

shes gonna be the coolest baby girl i know. of course she is im her godmother!

Lets go here.please.

next inks a mix between the two. where are you having it done i hear you ask? VEGAS BABY.

Chilling.

Seriously wish the world would just fuck right off.

i could seriously hurt some people as bad as it sound they really do twang on my last nerve.

on a good note i've got some photography work :)

WIN

i think summers coming. yeah it is.

Day by day...

today i just want to stop time get everything done and restart it.

theres just not enough time. maybe i need to control what time i do have better.

but sometimes i think well i only live once whats the point in wasting it.

but the time im wasting is going towards my future.

i better get my brain in gear.

Once upon a time a couple were in love.

The man got angry and did this.

He lost the girl. and this is what shes like without him.

I bet he kicks himself everyday.

i wanna earn that much money that i can wear shit like this everyday.

and buy a pair of sneakers a week.

to me that would be perfect.

I want to be this tattooed one day.

when i've got a real life.

whats the point?

i dont know but i know there isnt one unless you try.

ive recently watched a documentary on Jim Nachtwey-a war photographer.

ive never really thought about going to different countries where the war is everyday life and documenting it for the rest of the world to see.

i recon i could stomach it. some people cant handle the tragedy. the grief. the death. the destruction.

After watching this guy silently take images of dead bodies and grieving mothers ive realised that you have to switch off.

you cant let your emotions get in. you do your job and get out. you dont have an opinion. you dont get a say. your dont get to protest and you cant question if your making a living of others sorrow. these people need there story heard. they need the world to know what people are doing to them.

After thinking about this for some time. ive decided im so unbelievably selfish. not to the point where i dont care about others because i do. the people close to me are my life. i know alot of people say ohh id do anything for my mates but then there friends want something of theres and they dont want to hear about it.

im not like that if you are special in my eyes you get what you want.

simple.

but i mean the human race in general is so materialistic. oh i haven't got enough money for clothes or the £60 tattoo that i need.

dont get me wrong im like this.

but if you sit and think of a situation where another human being is at risk would you sacrifice all of these things for that persons life. and if you did would they appreiciate it?

this is a thing in life you have to decide. i can guarentee that the situation wont happen to at least 60% of you but just incase.

just think.

now i dont really show emotion. i can look at shocking images and watch disturbing videos and i can go and carry on with my life quite fine. but this documentary changed something about me. its graphic and detail. i dont think its what its what i saw that effects me its the thought of being in that situation. thinking life can really get that bad someday.

its horrific.

I want this a window when i have a house.

i cant wait to have my own house.

not because of the bills, the headache it is to run a house.

not that my mum and dad are not going to fill my fridge. or because ill be lonely when no ones around.

not because ill have to go to bed early because ill have no one to sit up with.

but because i can decorate every room how i want.

because i'm going to have the new york sky line painted on my living room door.

because i'm going to have an octupus stencil in my kitchen.

because i can have a baby dashund and basset hound dressed in green and burgendy jumpers.

because i can have a dvd room.

because i want to have a walk in wardrobe...for my sneakers.

because i'm going to have an adidas original symbol above my front door.

because i'm having my back garden as a secret night place with candles and pretty light.

because i wont need to go to bed early because there will always be someone else in my house. because my house will be safe and cosy.

the life of the party.

people like this make life what it is. i'm pretty sure i wouldn't be able to pass my degree without her.

talented and humble. the best kind of people, they are out there. besides all the fools and selfish you get some individuals that you know will change the world.

ive been lucky enough to meet a few. I cant wait to see them shine.

Definently cheers me up when my heads like this.

for some reason my brain is filled full of that much shit its starting to effect my usual trail of thought.

the simple and common case of overload. ill be glad when its over and i can just be.

You told me to get up, i got up and spread my wings and i flew.

This woman is perfect with a newcastle accent.

Im not going anywhere. EVER.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0ZpsCjiO2g&feature=related

Gets me every time.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=55pzFhFkGhg

everyperson should have inner strength. not many people show it but we all know its there.

sometimes it takes something really bad to happen or for anger to build or simply something that could change our lives that is out of our control.

everyperson should be able to kick ass. and show the world that when theyre pushed down.

they can push back.

i cant possibly imagine being in this situation.

Girl distracted by 9/11 tragedy.

recently i've been coming across images of this day. nearly 10 years ago.

its funny that you can remember where you were and what you were doing at the exact time of a tragedy.

not just a disaster but any pivotal moment in time that means something or that changed your way of thinking is etched in to a humans mind forever.

the human brain- a miracle.

Its just a dream right?

It's my dream.

i remember the times when i used to watch this film everyday.

i don't know what it is about it but it makes me feel safe.

i became to adore the actress in it and the director that made it.

even now when i flick to a channel and its on i can still tell you all the words.

sad i know but those were good days well spent.

i believed in it that much that i got the words etched onto my body for a lifetime.

not once but twice.

The darkness doesn't have any answers.

if i ever get married i want the reception to be like this...

full of laughter and happyness.

full of friends and family.

those who i share memories with and those who im going to create new ones with.

people who know and love me.

people who want to share my day with me.

people who dont just come for the occasion but just to have a good time.

a warm summers day but with a slight breeze.

a dusk that is lightened by vanilla candles and lanterns.

fire torches glowing against the dark sky.

music that brings out the child within us.

songs that mean something.

dancing like weve danced before.

dancing together.

photos that show the greatness and atmosphere of the day.

capturing moments that come natural to loved ones.

circus tricks for entertainment.

chinese lanterns that drift away into the night.

a day that makes dreams and happyness come true.

If i look like this at 42 I've lived a good life.

pictures of the day..

i want a little boy if any at all but this is cute.

Body canvas

free love

night time enchantments

i try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered.

every bodys screaming. i try to make a sound but no one hears me.

awsome website- http://pinterest.com/

take me as i am.

i spent my evening with these lovely people.

no matter how often we talk or see eachother. the moment we meet it seems like time has caught up without loss. and thats the way it will stay.

Homeward bound. being in a different place with different peoples been good.testing and tiring. one this that it definatley was is FUCKING HILLARIOUS!

i love my friends all of them.

I also realised, well actually confirmed that im gonna do what i want to do.not what everyone else wants to me to do. or what they expect of me. whats the point otherwise right? there isnt one if you dont 100% enjoy what your doing then dont bother at all.